Getting Away

Tomorrow, we are getting away for a few days as lots of things have happened to us in these past few weeks. There have been times when I did want to blog but when I got there, I had totally forgot what I had wanted to write about. Talk about dodgy memory!!!! So now whilst I have 5 minutes of peace and quiet I have decided to seize the moment!!!
   My son finshed secondary school 2 weeks ago and I am kind of glad but also kind of sad! As this thursday comming is my sons 16th Birthday. I can remember the joy I had carrying him and helping him become the person he has become now. But it has all happened so quickly, quicker than a blink of an eye at times. I have been with him through his happy and sad times. But I have always been there for him and I will always be. I want him to do well and acheive all he wants to do in his life. 
   But on the other flip of the coin my dad is having some tests done on his prostrate. I am not worried, neither is my father. But my mum has taken this very hard and of course and is not very happy about these tests. But what will be will be.
   So hence the last minute break to the lake district. We have all been at each others throats and this at times has been almost unberable.

Catching up

This is really a catch up post as I havent wrote anything in a month!!! i have just been so busy pondering and doing things, that I havent had a lot of time to blog. Naughty old me!!!
   But here goes a lot has really happened, some good, some bad and some sad. The good news is that i am starting to cut back on my money as that was getting way out of control again. And I was getting pretty sick of having no damn money all the time. I have embraced the second hand life fully and I am really enjoying using someone elses once loved and used goods. My garden is comming on quite nicely now and I am starting to appricate it more and more. I just want it to stop raining so I can get out there and do some gardening.
   But some sad and bad news now. I did have a good friend, one I felt a kinship with and I thought we were getting on, but sadly it wasnt to be. It has got that bad that she decided to get the police on to me and try to get me charged with harissment, which is a very serious accusation. But sadly wouldnt stand up in court. As it is the other way round, this lady decided to call my house at all hours tellling me that she was going to kill herself and that her partner had kicked her out and could she stay with my family.
     This went on for a few months and then one day last week I got a very rude voicemail message about some rubbish that she didnt want to be my friend and that it wouldnt work out. I aint a kid and I felt as if I was being spoken to like one. So I sent her a txt asking her why, my son also did as he was worried about me. then I thought whats the point, this lady clearly doesnt want any help to get better, so I sent a text say I would be returning the picture and I would like my items back. This according to the police is harrissment!!!
   But I have moved on and I have decided that the friends I have are the most important people in the world and I will always have my family. My son finished school a couple of weeks ago. I can remember taking him for his first day at nursery and all he did was cry!!! So now he is off to college and to rugby college as he loves doing the sport. All he needs now is a proper job so he can start supporting himself instead of sponging off me!!!
   It was Pauls birthday on Tuesday, he got an i pad which isnt bad!!! I wish it could br my birthday comming up as my phone is starting to die!!!
  And poor Suzie has kennel cough so she is feeling a tad sorry for herself at the moment bless her!!! But a lot has happened and I do promise to try and keep it more regular.

Phil Spencer

 This happened last week but I only got round to it today. See I am such a naughty little blogger, but at least I am still keeping it up in a manner.  Me and my Best Friend were in the village on our way for coffee last week, when who did I spy in our pretty little village Mr Philip Spencer of Location, Location, Location doing a bit of filming. But of course what did I do instead of going up and asking for his autograph I burst into a fit of the giggles! I always do this when I am near someone pretty famous, I just think it is one of those knee jerk reactions when I meey people I dont know I just stand there like a giggling fool.
   It gave my best friend a good old chuckle to say the least. But when we had finished coffee they were still filming in the village so we had to walk past them again! And then it happened yet again. They must of thought I was on something as the looks they gave me well were erm pretty interesting. But it gave my best friend a pretty good laugh.
   I think it is a coping mechanism with me, its like when someone asks me directions I tell them I dont live in the area as I am petrified that I would send them the wrong way! Or even worse try to grab me!  My husband always looks at me as if I am a strange fish when I do this and I suppose I am in a way, I just dont like people in my space and I always freak out!
  My dad had his supercar experience that everyone bought him for his birthday last Saturday and everyone enjoyed it, even if it was a lot of waiting around and I ended up entertaining kids as they were getting bored with it all. The cars were really nice and I mean really nice, I think my dad might sell his caravan and buy an astin Martin! No only kidding he couldnt do that. But he did look like a child in a candy store and loved driving all of them. He had this rosy little glow when he was done and I think he was as high as a kite with it all. Ahh bless him. I love seeing my dad happy!!! He makes me smile all the time!!!

May Day My day!!!

Me and DS1 went to the may day fare and I soon ended up on my own!!!! He had found some of his friends he hangs around with and decided to go with them, which was fine by me. I was quite happy for him to wander off and to have some fun as he isnt a baby anymore and I want to show him that I can trust him when he is out with his friends.
  So I wandered amongst the stalls on my own, missed out on a few bits and peices, I guess I just wasnt quick enough at the end of the day. Plus I aint into grabbing stuff off people that is so not me. I have lost stuff by putting it down to think about it. So hence now I keep a tight hold of it. But I was a tad disapointed as I was hoping for more bargains, but I was happy with my lot and I couldnt grumble on what I got. But the prices were quite high and I heard a few people complain. Sometimes I think people just want stuff for nothing, but other times you can get bargains. I got a pair of Nike trainers on my way home today for a steal. The manager thought they were worn out!!! But they were brand new with hardly any wear on them. I kept looking at them and then I decided to go with it and I am glad I did. It was the style of trainer I think put her off them. But never mind!!!!
   I cant understand why they charge sky high prices for well crap basically and uber cheap prices for good quality items. I am just baffled by it all. I know they have outlay etc..... But dont they realise that this is going to put people off going in there. If they kept their prices low they wouldnt have any problems about hitting targets!!! And they wouldnt have to do bargain rails neither and stock would pass through a lot quicker and I mean a lot quicker!!!! Since I have discovered the joy of the charity shop etc......... I dont really like buying new. Why should I give some fat cat a big bonus for the shite they sell why should I? Plus I would rather benefit home charities as they need all the help they can get. Plus I have a conscence not like the MD of Primark and the other big retailers who let kids work in crap conditions for crap pay. It boils my blood. Sorry rant over.

Getting there

Well I am slowly getting there. I still dont feel right and I am still low on Iron. Whatever this bug was it really did kick my ass!!! I want to sleep on a day, but not on a night. Boy I am screwed!! My head is upside down. I am all over the place. I cannot focus on anything at the moment!!!
   I just want to be on my own all the time, I dont like people disturbing me. God what on earth am I turning into the grinch!!!
   The weather isnt helping, its more like winter than spring!! I had to get my woolies out and start to wear them again its that cold. I want to see spring lambs in the fields dancing in the sunlight and lots and lots of dafs! But mother nature has decided that the weather must stay cold for now.
  I just fancy a doona day and stay under it all day. But when you have a family to care for it is easier said than done. I love looking after them it gives me purpose and it makes me smile and it makes me proud to be a mother and a wife. As that is one of life's great achievements being a parent. And how anyone could ever hurt a child is beyond me. They were children once.
   I am looking forward to the long weekend as it is bankholiday monday and were we live we have a may day fair which I love going to as it supports our local hospice. Which my very special second mother passed away and they did a brilliant job of looking after her. So I always give if I can, buy supporting the charity shops and local events. As they are always looking for money. Yes their items may priced on the high side, but to me every single penny is worth it. So always support your local hospice as one day you might need their help or care.

back to it!!!

Well I have decided to break my bit of quiet and a well earned rest and to get back to blogging!!!! I have not had much time to myself and I can only write when I am alone. I cant do with disruption it disturbs my thought pattern.
     Well Paul decided he would like to go to hospital as well a couple of weeks ago with an asthma attack. But he was really bad, he couldnt stand up, walk or talk. So he got whisked away. So we had a tense time with that. But has he packed the smokes in has he nickers!!! I have had asthma for a long time and I had to give up as I didnt have a choice as I would have been pushing up dasies by now!!! Infact I packed in the booze as well! And I feel a better person for it!!! But sadly my weight has rocketed up and I know I need to diet and I want to, I tried the gym and I just didnt enjoy it one little bit! So I am going to have to walk away from the candy jar and the pepsi bottle and find nice tasting lower fat alternatives!
   We also contracted a bug during the holidays which wasnt very nice at all. Infact I still cannot eat properly now and that was 2 weeks ago. I have never felt so ill in my entire life. I felt like death warmed up and I dont wish to repeat it anytime in the near future! So there you go, the house is still like a madhouse!!!!

End Of the Month

Well its another end of another month. Am I sad to see it go? You bet I am. It has been one of the most stressful months so far and I am glad to see the back of it. What with Jack in Hospital, work hours getting less and less and suffering from really bad bouts of depression. I am really glad to say goodbye to this month.
     Why on earth do we get months like this? Some months run as smooth as silk and others just make you want to scream. I havent been able to blog as much as I feel at times I have had nothing much to say, even though the cup has been billowing over the edge!
   But sometimes I feel like I just want to be on my own and I dont want to do a damn thing, which is very hard for me at times. The urge to move is getting stronger and stronger as I hate it even more here. My dream house has come up for sale but it is nearly half a million! So I have to dream. I would love to go and have a look at it, but it is up with one of those posh estate agents, so not a cat in hells chance. Its shape sings to me and it is one three floors, four bedrooms a huge craft/art/camera/sewing room for me. But it will never ever happen. So I will have to wonder and ponder who is the lucky person who will get to live in you ohh wonderous house.
    But yes I am glad to see the back of this month and I dont think I will be the only member of the house to feel the same!